CONFUSION

Hey, it's me again. as usual, sitting here and having a quality time writting on this blank blog haha. alright, i was having so much fun today with my buddies, eventhough we didn't go to a precious place but we did have a lot of fun at our friend's house while watching some movies. i also got entertained and learned everything from the movies. well, i think i don't have to tell you what movies i watched today with my buddies because it isn't necessary though ahhahaa. but i'll tell you something which makes me confused and don't know what to do.

Honestly, i'm getting bored of writting about this topic; confusion. Confusion always be my trending topic in life. this is kinda shit!. i mean, i'm trying so hard to throw that feeling away but i have no idea why i can't do anything when it comes over here. i always feel like a stick that is stubbed deeply into the ground, stuck, and couldn't even move an inch. this is exhausting!.

When we drown in a confusion, there must be that one person who always lights up our world. and yes, i've got that one person. perhaps i can call him my "right hand". he's the one i turn to everytime i feel confused. He knows what i like or dislike even better than my ex did. he's always there listening to all my stories without being bothered and bored. he also gives me so many solutions to all the problems i have. he's one great listener. you know, it's hard to find a boy who wants to listen to a girl's unstoppable stories nowdays, huh?.

We always have some interesting topics to talk about, whether it's about subjects, movies, music, social phenomena, politics, religion, friendship, love life, or even family. We can't even stop debating when we have a different opinion on something, and that's what i love about being friends with him. He's critical and open minded.

I don't even know why i feel so comfortable everytime i get closer to him. he always tries to make my day brighter than before. he always be the one who wipes my tears away. we hang out together, study together, have fun together, until everybody says that there's an affair between us. but i actually don't consider it as an affair. he's just one of a thousand best friends i've ever had in my whole life. i know i'm feeling broken-hearted, i know i'm single and nobody owns my heart anymore, but....hmm.. i have no idea. it's been less than a month since i broke up with my ex. So, it's totally impossible for me to move on. i mean, i can't be in love for now but i don't wanna be mentioned as an empty hope giver. hmmmm i'm not ready for love and being hurt again. Being his BEST FRIEND is more than enough for now. i'm happy that i have him as my BEST FRIEND.