Oh my goodness! how are you doing, dear? i hope you're doing great these days without any of my words. It's been sooooo long since the last time i wrote on this blog. Many stories i should have told you before but sadly, i had no time for you, dear (actually i've been kinda lazy) ahahaaa lol just teasing. Alright, anyway, i'm doing really good, and have a wonderful-boring-long holiday haha can you imagine how boring it is when you have few months holiday without any interesting activities? yeah, i bet you know exactly how i feel though you're not a human being. But i thank Allah for everything :).
Anyway, i don't know where to start, because so many stories were left but let me try to start it all. You know, the last time i wrote here, i was still a high school student (12th grader) and was really busy preparing UN (National Examinations), that was a little bit dramatical and also full of emotions, but Allah paid it all! yeaaahhh, i passed the examinations. When my principle was about to annouce it, i was really nervous and couldn't even think logically anymore, i was thinking like "what if i didn't pass this examinations?" or "what should i tell my family, my friends, and the people around me if i obviously didn't pass the exams?" i was kinda desperate. The UN used to have some problems like; the thin answer sheets, the late distribution of question sheets, and the UN this year wasn't done as one like few years before. But it was all paid! i passed it with really good grade on each subject.
But not only that, beside i passed the exams, i also had one more thing that makes me like "i can't believe i did this!". Well, i just never thought that this could happen to me, 'cause long before, many people or even me doubt myself, this is because i never get what i wanted to get. When i was about to go to a middle school, i didn't pass the test which was held by the school i had choosen, and the same thing happened when i was about to go to high school, so, that's why i always think negatively about what i want. I almost didn't register to the SNMPTN (national selection to the state university) but my teacher forced me to do so and i registered on the last minute with English literature as my concentrations. And my mind was like "oh dear, you still wanna did the same mistake? come on, u didn't get the state middle school and also the high school one, now you wanna get the state university? just don't blame me if you fall again!" so, i didn't have an ambition to pass it, but of course i hoped and prayed to get that state university. Some of my friends underestimated my department, one of them was like "English is too universal! it doesn't mean anything 10 years later! haha" but i just go with that. I prayed and prayed until suddenly, i.....I PASSED THE SELECTION! and those who underestimated me didn't pass it! oops! i didn't mean to be arrogant, but that's just how it is. So, don't ever underestimate someone's dreams. Because we'll never know those dreams can take him/her to be the greatest in the future.
Now, i thank Allah for what He gave me. The power of prayer is trully working. I can't even get what i want if it isn't because of the help of Allah. So, let me just say "Alhamdulillah". I do hope this is the best for me, and i'm sure this is! so, i guess, from now on, i'm trying to write everything in english, because it'll be my concentrations hehehhehee.
Well, ummmm i think that's all for today, im starting doubt now and don't know what to tell. so, thanks for letting me to write down here. Love you, dear. And see you next time :).
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